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2012/08/14

How You Gave Birth To A Monster

I'm scarred, mad, and bitter. Totally lacking sanity and humanity. How, you might ask. Well, you did took some of mine along with you. Doesn't matter though, I already found refugee here in the abyss. It doesn't exactly feels good but it's quite fun to move past humanity.

Oh, please no, dear. It's not your fault, really. I already have this tendency towards madness even since back then. You just accidentally flipped the switch. Yes, I was that clingy annoying lad who always said nothing but the inappropriate stuffs at the wrong time. I was that mysterious lad, who always jested in order to hide his awkwardness. I was that lad, who always gazed to the whiteboard lifelessly. Seriously, dear, you should've seen me coming.

Thinking again about it, it might be partially your fault. How, again you ask? Well, how do you expect me to survive the fall, lass? I was fragile to begin with and you just pushed me off the ledge without warning. You are the one who plunged me into the depth of this abyss. Don't give me that "I have no idea" kind of bullshit. You are the one that never bothered asking.

So as the story goes, there was I, dead. Decaying like a pet you forgot to bury. But as people say, life must go on. I'm not really good at necromancy so I just frankensteined the shit out of my corpse, glueing whatever left just to retain the form so you will still recognize me. I will still jest, I will still mess around, but you will no longer able to gaze inside my mind without fear and disgust.

..and here I am, a rotten, hideous monster, trampling over everything you believed in with roaring laughter. I'm no longer human. I'm past human, bitch. Have a dinner with me?

...

Of course, You will never know, 'cause I will never show. Well, unless you read.



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August 15th, 2012
Reminiscing